Daze

After a fruitful trip in Fukuoka mid November, I have been out sick as a dog. It was not due to traveling I guess. I was okay for 5 days after the trip, then suddenly fever came.

I thought I would be okay after a few cans of Coke.. I am allergic to paracetamol so basically there’s no cure for me. I really despise it whenever I visited the doctors and they ALL ASK THE SAME FUCKING QUESTION, “SO YOU FEVER, YOU TAKE WHAT MEDICATION AH?” Damn tiu. So I didn’t go to see any GPs until my fever hit 39.6°C and no sign of coming down. Yes… Again the stupid question… And a lot of explaining… Went home Rm70 poorer with a bottle of cough syrup, some mouth gargle and pills for pain… Which I did not take because I was not in any pain, except feeling lethargic and I can cook an egg on my forehead.

After 2 days of being bed ridden, I went back to work because fever subsided to 37.2°C… Only to bounce back up towards the end of the day. There seem to be no end to this. Ern said, I have an onsen on my forehead.

I went to the second round of GP.. Again being asked the same bloody question. But this GP suggested me to draw blood to test for dengue. Which she did. Thankfully, it’s no dengue. Was worried sick might not be able to make it to my cousin sis’ wedding 3 days from fever days. Imagine if it’s dengue, I will be all alone in the hospital. It would be tragic.

As I laid in my bed, I prayed for recovery. It went up to 38.3°C again. Seeing how I suffered, my cousin went to buy some concoction from Chinese medicinal Hall…some antelope horn… Which smells like the freaking zoo. I downed it in a few gulps and crashed in bed. Fever went up to 39°C. God bless me.

Morning came and I checked my temperature. 37°C. Fuh… Miracles? The prayer works? Or the antelope horn works?

Dragged my ass to work that day, feeling slightly better. The next few days were a blur… I felt like it was a long dream. I kept sleeping everywhere until the wedding.. And went home, still in daze until yesterday. I am back to my normal routine. Gym, work, home, repeat.

Empathy

I went to do grocery shopping yesterday after I saw the empty fridge at home. Perhaps this weekend will have to bring mom to the market for stock piling again for two weeks. Its amazing how one family can eat so much.

I chose some air flown Australian broccoli and proceeded to the weighing counter to weigh the vegetable. Since the vegetable section next to the counter, I handed the broccoli to the man from behind the counter.

He ignored me totally. Then I spoke to him to weigh the broccoli he insisted I walked to his front to hand him the broccoli. Cannot from the side or behind the counter.

Fuh.. I was furious. There was nobody and yet he refused to weigh my purchase just because I handed him from the back or side of the counter.

I had to walk a big round just to go in front of the counter to hand him the broccoli. At that time, I was already fuming. I made a remark saying, what difference does it make? Why do you have to inconvenient your customer?

He ignored me and proceeded to weigh the produce. No eye contact. Not a single word uttered.

Then I softened. Maybe he’s deaf or mute. Perhaps he’s autistic. I have been harsh on him. I feel ashamed of myself.

I went home thinking about this voiceless middle aged man. Sometimes we simply refused to adhere to certain rules for conveniences’ sake . That made us self entitled. Our time is more precious than others? I learned I must observe the situation before going all riled up over such a petty issue.

Blogging Saves My Job!

Didn’t know that blogging somehow came in handy for me at work. Though my job is not IT related, suddenly I am being shoved into maintaining the department’s knowledge based website. Was just given only the admin user name and password and off I went. Managed to write and publish an article within 10 minutes. Effortlessly. The interface used is more or less the same as WordPress. Omg.

I don’t have official coding experiences but when I first started blogging, I was exposed to coding in blogspot. A friend taught me how to view source to obtain the SQL to add on my blog. I eventually did. And somehow understood the commands. Haha. After that, WordPress made it all so much easier with drag drop widgets. Such tools are made in heaven and such a life saver!

So it’s not useless to learn a new skill. You might not know when it will come in handy in life. Explore forth and go beyond!

What in the World…

I was googling for some old perfume and stumbled upon this.

Haha.

What happened to one of my favourite perfume? Wonder if I buy this, mom would mistakenly use it to wash the windows. No other better design is it??

Not too sure if it’s still the same perfume… The bottle used to be really nice.

I used this ages ago and still like the smell.

My favourite perfume list are as follows, in case I forget about them and decided to spend money on new perfume and ended hating them (happens all the time!) and no no list

1. Chanel Chance

2. Clinique Happy

3. Givenchy Fast Forward (discontinued)

4. Moschino Couture! (I thought discontinued until I saw the window washer)

5. Ralph Lauren Romance (not Tender or Midnight ugh!)

6. Estee Lauder Pleasure

7. Chanel Crystalle

8. Estee Lauder Dazzling Silver (discontinued)

9. Davidoff Coolwater

10. Elizabeth Arden Green Tea

11. Elizabeth Arden Sunflower

12. Estee Lauder Intuition

13. Salvatore Ferragamo Incanto

Big no no

1. Issey Miyaki

2. Estee Lauder Pure White Linen

3. DKNY Apple

4. Lolita Lempicka

5. Estee Lauder Beautiful

6. Estee Lauder Sensous Nude

Letting Go

I had dream last night of a few good friends.

I dreamed of going to a dumpling restaurant. Was supposed to go in but suddenly saw B with her mother and two other friends. Then came along another friend S. I thought S is going to join B for lunch.

To my surprise, S didn’t go inside the restaurant and walked direct towards me instead. I asked S, you are not joining B for lunch? S said as a matter of factly, “Oh I was not invited. Never mind. Let’s eat together.”

We walked towards another restaurant selling western food and ordered our brunch of American breakfast. Suddenly, M came. M is the husband of B.

I asked M, “Eh your wife is at the other restaurant eating dumplings. Aren’t you joining her?”

M shook his head and said, “Oh never mind la. I haven’t seen you for so long.”

So we chatted like old times and I asked about his house renovation. He said, it’s getting nowhere because it’s too expensive.

After that, I asked my sister to help tapao 20 soup dumplings and 10 fried dumplings from the shop where B is to avoid bumping into her. In my heart I feel my presence was not welcomed. So better to avoid unnecessary awkwardness.

After, we all went to my house to enjoy the dumplings. Before I open my mouth to bite into the juicy dumpling, my alarm rang.

I shared with another friend and she said, maybe I miss the good old times with this friend, hence the dream.

Human are all creatures of habit. Of coz we will always hope things remain status quo for as long as they can. But this is life and change is always a constant.

Whatever it is, I earnestly hope life is always good for them, for all friends, whether or not they are still in touch and may good fortune, peace and love follow them wherever they go.